Torn between Duty and Desire

Written by Ramona Thompson

Photograph by   Syarafina Yusof

Photograph by Syarafina Yusof

Taking wedding vows is the farthest thing from my mind since meeting him
Oh God what am I going to do?
Rumbling in my head day and night are these constant all consuming doubts
Never before been so unsure of anything in my life

Bitch of a thing it would be to do to a man who has stood by me through it all
Either way I choose someone is bound to get hurt
That's what makes this so very hard
Why can't I get past one scandal of a kiss and forget him?
Everywhere I go and everything I do his memory follows me
Even in my dreams there's no escaping that sensual devil's smile
Never felt my heart or my good girl ways so tested before

Damned if I do and damned if I don't
Under the spell cast by forbidden love
No way I can go on forever denying the truth
Yet somehow I must find the courage to do just that

All I've ever wanted I have and yet can not have
Not if I want to avoid hurting anyone
Damn it all!

Destined to love one while doomed to wed another
Everywhere I turn is only another dead end
So deeply buried I can't find a way out of this mess I have made
It brings endless tears to my eyes and rips my heart right in two
Right or wrong there is no clear choice here
Either way I choose

Torn between duty and desire

Someone is bound to lose

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